Love Padre♥️
This would be my first ever medium content and this is the only idea that happened to my mind.
I’ve been so in love with music since I was little and I do. I’m not the kind of person who will start the day with music so aesthetically. Instead, I wake up with mind burden with these so called adult life problems. I’ll lament my own life for a minute and grateful right away for just being alive and then I’ll listen to music when I’m ready. Well, while writing this piece, I’m listening to Isaac Gracie anyway. I guess my personality has been intervented by music I heard time by time and I love to catch that presumption (it’s even a truth to be honest). It would takes long time to share my POV of “music changes you” because I do experinced it. You are really lucky when you find the fittest and good music while you grow older. Music teaches me many life lessons, it helps me contemplate, grow and evolve. The most noticeable of music effect to me is that I think I can understand the people around me in a particular situation. So, here’s the songs that help me understand and love my father again. Actually, there’s so many songs bring me to think about my father, but here’s the top of mind right now.
- Blowin’ in The Wind // Bob Dylan
“How many roads must a man walk down
Before you call him a man?”
Who doesn’t know that legendary quote from this great song? You probably consider this song is about war and ambiguous questions Bob Dylan throw over humanity that the answer is already there, in the wind, but for me, it’s more about my father. I don’t pick the first line only to say that this is about a man I called father, but the whole lyrics. It’s like as if I can catch and grasp his anxiety being a father. He has been trying to be a good role by far, but we know for sure that nobody born as a father, as he learns to be, he makes mistake. The kid, the wife, they all born as they are too. Everyone is trying to play the role, being child and being a wife (and mother) and everyone makes mistakes too. One dissampointed the other, it feels like we never enough for each other, feels like colonized, thousand of goodness feels like nothing and one mistake feels like everything. How to be great for each other? We questioning that. How to be enough? Father wondering his own role. - Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want // The Smiths
“Haven’t had a dream in a long time.
See, the life I’ve had can make a good man bad”
When I was teenager, there was time I hated my father, like it was hell to ever see his face and I think he felt the same too towards me. I guess it’s a common problem in any family, kids turn to a rebel teenager and parents couldn’t handle it LOL. I genuinely contemplate and considering this lyrics as what my father probably felt and thought of me at that time of era. That was a funny presumption yet saddening. It must be hard for him to play his role consistently following his kids growth. Ahhh, that must be hard job. - Slow Up // Jacob Banks
“What I’ve learnt from a traveller, there’s no road that can lead to nirvana
There’s a world to discover, but home is love”
Jacob Banks said that this song is basically about himself, a note for the younger himself, to not rush himself of everything, to slow up and enjoy life. When I first heard this beautiful song, what slipped in my mind just pain and anxiety. It’s never easy to live, isn’t it? Life is even getting dissying and puzzling as you grow older, like you want to be the younger you again, we really miss the “kid us” who run day by day happily.
My father was the eldest of 7 kids, married at a very young age with a very young girl too. I bet he’s ready for love but not for kids, he’s ready to be husband but not with being father. He skipped so many stages of life. He probably want to be back again being a kid, reboot his life and think twice before every big conclusion he’ll make. Again, it must be hard for him. - My Way // Andy Williams
“I bit off more than I could chew, but through it all, when there was doubt, I ate it up and spit it out. I faced it all and I stood tall and did it my way”
Listening to this song got me understand how it feels to be alive for long time, being old, crooked, done some messsiness in life but still proud enough to leave because he living life without regrets. No, it’s not like the sort of life my father has. It just shows me something worth of this life. But the lyrics I highlight is just make me think about my father, how he fight his life as well as his 7 kids and wife. That’s amazinggg. - Still Fighting It // Ben Folds
“Everybody knows It hurts to grow up — And you’re so much like me
I’m sorry”
This might be the most inviting tears of all these songs I mentioned. Verse by verse, I can’t hold this river. It’s like my father talks to me, tells me how sucks it is to be grown and being an adult and he’s ready to carry the load together because he’s there and he know how to through it all. I know him too well, he’s not good at showing love and affection, but the body language always makes me teary in reticent. He’s not always there for me, but his sweat always hover in ceiling that reminds me to grateful for a father who consistently love me by his own version.
